CHRISTOPHER WAS BORN IN LOUISVILLE ,KY. ON DECEMBER 29,1981 AND HIS LIFE WAS A STRUGGLE FROM THE VERY BEGINNING.
HE WAS SEIZING AT BIRTH AND THEY CALLED HIM A BLUE BABY BECAUSE HE WAS NOT BREATHING. BECAUSE OF THIS HE SUFFERED SEVERE BRAIN DAMAGE. HE WAS IN THE NICU FOR 1 WEEK BEFORE I WAS ALLOWED TO SEE HIM AND THEN AFTER TWO WEEKS HE WAS SENT HOME. I THOUGHT HE WAS PERFECT BUT THEN WHAT MOTHER WOULDN'T THINK THEIR CHILD WAS PERFECT?IT DID NOT TAKE ME LONG TO REALIZE SOMETHING WAS REALLY WRONG EVEN THOUGH THE DRS KEPT SAYING SOME BABIES ARE JUST SLOWER THAN OTHERS, RED FLAGS KEPT GOING UP WHEN HE COULD NOT KEEP FORMULA DOWN NOT EVEN GOAT'S MILK AND THEN WHEN HE WAS NOT TURNING OVER I KNEW SOMETHING WAS TERRIBLY WRONG AND AT 6 MONTHS OF AGE WE WERE TOLD HE HAD CEREBRAL PALSY CAUSED FROM THE SEVERE BRAIN DAMAMGE. WE LEARNED LATER ON THAT HE DID NOT HAVE part of his BRAIN STEM WHICH CONTROLS EVERY FUNCTION OF YOUR BODY.THEY TOLD US IT WOULD NOT GET WORSE AND WOULD GET BETTER WITH THERAPY BUT HOW WRONG THEY WERE.AT 10 MONTHS OF AGE HE HAD MENINGITIS AND WAS IN THE HOSPITAL FOR 31 DAYS. THIS WAS HIS FIRST VISIT TO KOSAIR CHILDREN'S HOSPITAL AND LITTLE DID WE KNOW AT THE TIME THAT IT WAS TO BECOME HIS HOME AWAY FROM HOME AND THAT A FEW YEARS LATER THE RONALD MCDONALD HOUSE WOULD BECOME OUR SECOND HOME. CHRIS STRUGGLED FOR A GOOD BREATH OF AIR HIS ENTIRE LIFE AND I CANNOT IMAGINE WHAT it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 BLOCK 16. ,PLOT 16 AND HIS FIRST 2 NAMES HAS 16 LETTERS IT'S AS IF GOD PUT HIM HERE AND CHRIS KNEW AT 16 HE WOULD BE GONE. HE WILL BE LOVED FOREVER AND NEVER FORGOTTEN.

chris daddy erik made this for you because you no longer need your chair...

you will always be my boy. I will never forget you. love, daddy erik






we love you christopher







           MOMMY PLEASE DONT CRY!!!!!

Mommy please don't cry...
A beautiful angel carried me here!
I met Jesus today, mommy.
He cradled me in his big, strong arms.
He made me feel so happy inside.
Mommy please don't cry...
Heaven is wonderful.
Did you know the streets are made of gold?
Real gold!
I have lots of friends, Mommy.
We run and play, we giggle and laugh.
I can't wait to show you my secret hideouts!
Mommy please don't cry...
When I fall it doesn't hurt!
There are no tears in Heaven.
I've met a man named Noah.
He told me about his big boat,
all the animals, and the very first rainbow.
Have you ever heard of Noah, Mommy?
Mommy please don't cry...
We have lots of parties here.
with streamers and hats,
and the best chocolate cake ever!
When it's time to rest, angels tuck us in.
I never get scared Mommy,
there is no darkness here!
Jesus is the light of Heaven.
Mommy please don't cry...
The angels are always singing.
I love to sing with the angels.
You'd be proud of me,
I have a pretty good voice.
I must have gotten it from you.
There is a river here,
in the most beautiful garden
you could ever imagine...
and a huge tree with yummy fruit.
The angels call it the tree of life.
Mommy, it's so wonderful to be alive in Heaven!Mommy, please don't cry...
Sometimes I just like to be by myself.
That's when I think of you.
Someday Mommy, we will hold each other tight!
Then you will cradle me in you arms,
and stroke my hair...
And once again, our hearts will beat together.
Mommy, please don’t cry...
I'll wait right here for you.

       WHAT MAKES A MOTHER?

I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today
I asked "What makes a Mother?"
And I know I heard Him say.

"A Mother has a baby"
This we know is true
"But God can you be a Mother,
When your baby's not with you?"

"Yes, you can, " He replied
With confidence in His voice
"I give many women babies,
When they leave is not their choice. 

Some I send for a lifetime,
And others for the day.
And some I send to feel your womb,
But there's no need to stay." 

"I just don't understand this God
I want my baby to be here."
He took a deep breath and cleared His throat,
And then I saw the tear. 

"I wish I could show you,
What your child is doing today.
If you could see your child's smile,
With all the other children and say... 

'We go to Earth to learn our lessons,
Of love and life and fear.
My Mommy loved me oh so much,
I got to come straight here. 

I feel so lucky to have a Mom,
Who had so much love for me.
I learned my lessons very quickly,
My Mommy set me free. 

I miss my Mommy oh so much,
But I visit her every day.
When she goes to sleep,
On her pillow's where I lay 

I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek,
And whisper in her ear.
Mommy don't be sad today,
I'm your baby and I'm here.' 

"So you see my dear sweet ones,
your children are okay.
Your babies are born here in My home,
And this is where they'll stay.

They'll wait for you with Me,
Until your lesson's through.
And on the day that you come home
they'll be at the gates for you. 

So now you see what makes a Mother,
It's the feeling in your heart
it's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start 

Though some on earth may not realize,
you are a Mother.
Until their time is done.
They'll be up here with Me one day
and know that you are the best one!"
AUTHOR UNKNOWN



                   In Loving  Memory Of A Dear Son                             

Something will remind me
I never know just when,
It might be something someone says
And it all comes back again

the times we spent together
The happiness, the fun,
Once again I feel the pain
Of life without my Son.

t's said that time's a healer
Im not sure this is true,
There's not a day goes by  my Son
That I don't cry for you.

"How does one become a butterfly?"
Pooh asked persively
"You must want to fly so much that you're
willing to give up being a caterpillar,"
piglet replied......
"You mean you die?"
Asked pooh
"Yes and no"  he answered
"What looks like you die but what's REALLY you live on."
Author - A.A. Milan

chris loved the pooh bear so his special name I used for him was kissy pooh
                  


                "Why                           

Hair so brown, eyes so blue, just a question "why so soon??
He was only a little boy we never seen him disappoint anyone...
We tried to talk, tried to cry, there's just nothing that will bring 
him back "why" is that???
Did you need a little boy or just a little angel??
Did he do everything he was put on earth to do??
Just asking i cant understand "why" so soon???
i was only 13 years old and my sister was only 14 years old
"why" him, he was our big brother, did he do the right thing
or did mess up.... just asking "why??
he was such a sweet and kind person to all he knew even
people who did not like him...
He might of not walked, talked , played with other kids much
but that was our big broher he was still a little boy...  "WHY"

             IN MEMORY OF;  CHRISTOPHER SUTER THOMAS PROCTOR
                           "OUR BIG BROTHER" 

This was written by: Kimberlee Huff Christopher baby sissy!!!!
 

 Christopher Suter Thomas Proctor
   12-29-81                                                               05-13-98

A Million words could not bring yu back......
I know because i've tried
Neither could a million tears
I know because I've cryed!!!!!!!!

   In memory of:
Christopher suter thomas proctor
12-29-1982          05-12-1998

   Rest dear brother!!!
Rest,dear brother, yu deserve it well,
And listen as the angels weave their spell,
They'll teach yu all their heavenly things.
Teach yu the secret of growing wings.
You won,t remember such things as pain.
Only the smell of summer's rain.
The sunset that settles in the west,
And how a bluebird builds her nest;
A babbling brook that races home,
To the roaring seashores of fleccy foam.
Rest, dear brother, where eternity,s lie,
And thank you, brother for stopping by.
Sleep softly neath your earthly throne,
marked here well by marble stone.
Hear not the anger and child that cries;
Hear only the wind as the eagle flies.
Remember your years, the paths yu trod,
and walk them now in the hands of god
walk forever an a summer's day
Where years neither come or slip away.
And remember most that, with tear in eye
I thank yu brother for stopping by.

RIP dear brother for yu deserve it well!!!!

        Please light a candle so we know that yu was here and also to help keep christopher memory going..........


If you would please also fell free to visit christopher grandpaw site also....
http://charles-proctor.memory-of.com/About.aspx



                                        

whenever i am feeling blue a butterfly always comes and lands close to me and I know it is christopher telling me he loves me and in just a few seconds I am happy again

                    

this is from your 2 brother-in laws they both live to hunt and fish. I think Timmy would live in the woods24/7 if he could and Tim enjoys hunting almost as much as timmy does.



                       

thank you nancy for the pics. they mean alot to me and erik and the girls

Christopher you were and you will always be my little pooh bear. May you hold pooh tight each night until I get there and then I will hold you and never let you go. we all love and miss you very much







thank you angel moms for your help with this picture/ it means alot to me and daddy erik

this picture is from tim (Chris brother-in-law) which he has never met..
Chris tim found this for you and said if you was here you would love to watch it with him...... To:Chris
                                  From:Tim

                  


If Chris was here he would also be fishing with his 3 sisters and his 2 brother-N-law's  and mom and daddy erik     
                                                To:  Chris
                             From:  Timmy,Big sissy,Tim,Baby sissy,    
                                  ,Mommy.Daddy Erik.stephanie



YOU ARE AN AWESOME SON, BROTHER,GRANDSON, NEPHEW, COUSIN,& ANGEL. ANYONE WHO EVER TOOK THE TIME TO SAY HI TO YOU WALKED AWAY LOVING YOU. YOU JUST HAD THAT KIND OF EFFECT ON EVERYONE. YOU WILL NEVER NOT BE LOVED AND REMEMBERED,






TO MY SON
DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU,
DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I CARE?
DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I GRIEVE FOR YOU,IN MY HOURS OF DEEP DESPAIR?
 YOU WERE SUCH A PRECIOUS CHILD TO ME,
HOW I REJOICED WHENYOU WERE BORN,
HOW I LOVED TO SEE YOUR SMILING FACE,
AND NOW I GRIEVE AND MORN.
FOR HE'S GONE, MY SON IS GONE,
MY HEART CRIES IN THE NIGHT.
THEN DEEP WITHIN, A VOICE CALLS BACK,
YOUR SON NOW LIVES IN LIGHT.
HE'S GONE TO WHERE YOU MIGHT NOT SEE
BUT YOU REALLY KNOW HE'S THERE.
WOULD YOU WANT TO CALL HIM BACK,
JUST TO COMFORT YOUR DESPAIR?
AND THEN I BOW MY HEAD IN SHAME,
WAS I SO SELFISH THEN,
WOULD I REALLY WANT TO CALL MY SON,
TO COME TO ME AGAIN?
NO, HE'S IN A BRIGHTER ,SWEETER PLACE,
WHERE IS IS BETTER LOVED THAN HERE,
WHERE HE IS TAUGHT BY TEACHERS DEAR.
AND SOMEDAY WE WILL MEET ONCE MORE,
WHEN MY LIFE ON EARTH IS DONE.
HE'LL EMBRACE ME IN THE SAME OLD WAY,
ONCE AGAIN, I"LL HAVE MY SON.
                             AUTHOR UNKNOWN

these are from baby sissy (kimmie) she loves dolphins and has so many that she should paint her house blue so it would look like the oceanif only there were stairs to Heaven.even though I miss you so much I could not ask you to come back and live in pain again.





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